Unthinkable Tragic Loss of My Dog (Emotional)

Unthinkable Tragic Loss of My Dog (Emotional)

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It’s probably hard for you guys to even watch some of this I understand if you don’t watch the whole video I completely understand but also please understand that I need to talk about it right now I’ve been mourning and grieving for how many days now and I’m just ready to talk about it it’s like a therapy for me you know this dog was just incredible an incredible dog got it got it but Molly’s dead she passed away a few days ago she’s not just your typical Farm dog you know this dog went everywhere with me Molly was born May 17 2020 she just passed her 4year birthday and she loved life at the farm she really lived life to the fullest here she had great food great company a lot of love from me and my darling and she gave us so much love back it’s unbelievable how this dog has impacted our life and I cannot even put it into words the sadness that we’re feeling at this moment and it’s almost like we can’t go on but we understand that we have to persevere and things have to go on she got hit by a car here at the farm complete freak accident you know some somebody was visiting the farm and you guys know that we’re running a business here at the farm and you know we have guests and people come and go and somebody was coming and Molly just shot out from the Woods running full speed from the woods and it all just happens in half a second it’s devastating oh I feel like I got to die and you know olives the same way she goes everywhere with me her and Molly if I’m if I’m going to Home Depot they’re coming with me if I’m going shopping they come with me if I’m like anywhere that I’m going literally all the people who visit the farm they love the dogs so I mean that’s how we got Olive here in the first place we got Olive here in the first place because somebody was watching Molly and I on the farm and I’m always promoting this breed as being such an amazing breed and a lot of people they learned a lot about sheep dogs because of our Channel and we have a good amount of content pumping up the tires of Old English sheep dogs you don’t see a lot of them out there I don’t know I don’t know what to do now I don’t know how to behave I don’t know how to wake up in the morning when Molly every single day she’s lying down by the door every single day she’s lying down to greet me in the morning she’s greeting my wife she literally like when we’re preparing dinner she’s sitting down on my wife’s feet that was her big thing she would she would sit down on my wife’s feet and then put her head up to my wife and like look look up and look up at her with her beautiful big beautiful eyes look up at her like hi Mama how are you cuz she knows she’s going to get some food from mama you know I feel like such a fool talking to the camera sobbing my eyes out I’m sorry for having you guys having to see me like this just turned 4 years old she has such a long good life ahead of her you know I was busy working over here on the farm and they came running after me to get me and you know I mean they they’re obviously devastated too like it’s I can’t imagine having them to go through this either cuz they’re dog people too they love their dogs they have I don’t know how many dogs in The Farmhouse two three it’s tough I have to be able to talk about it you understand if I can’t talk about it I still have a farm to run I still have a business to run I haven’t been doing much work I feels so down like I can’t keep going she was my life this dog my life you have to understand that I’m I’m almost 50 years old I’ve never had a dog like Molly never I probably never will olive is great but she’s not Molly she’s great in her own way she has her own different personalities from Molly but man she’s supposed to live 15 years not live four years this is just oh it’s heartbreaking unbelievable I’m going to take some time obviously this happened how many days ago now I haven’t literally done anything I haven’t gone to work I’ve just done the bare minimum chores on the farm all I’ve knows what’s going on to she knows she’s been so sad and lonely I could tell because cuz I know she’s usually this rambunctious hyper psychotic chaotic dog not today not the past few days she’s I think she understands what what I’m going through what my wife is going through she keeps giving us hugs you know because she knows what’s going on of all the things that I thought could happen to my dogs getting hit by a car was never one of them because our farm is so private we’re not close to a road there’s no way for the dogs to get to a road or a highway it’s an impossibility but the farm guests you know it’s just a freak accident jeez I rushed her to an emergency vet that we have here in in Barry Ontario and it was not it was a Sunday so there’s nothing open really but this emergency vet was open I’ve never been there before they were wonderful actually they were wonderful the honia emergency vets in Barry and they uh honestly I had Molly in my arms I was talking to her the whole drive there you know like trying to keep her alive or at least in spirits and at least letting her hear my voice you know while I’m drive it I was booting it too I thought the cops were going to get me for sure I got there and I picked her up quick and brought her in and they had a a special a special trolley for you know because she’s a big girl Molly she’s 96 lbs so trying to pick up a dog off the ground and get her into my truck and get her to the man it’s a good thing of a big strong guy cuz if I wasn’t a big strong guy what would you have do she just would have lied there but I got her there and it was basically about 10 15 minutes and they came out with the sad news and I just broke down balling like a big baby big farmer Chad crying like a big baby I’ve had many dogs over my life people but I can tell you that I’ve never ever had a dog like Molly this is the kind of impact that this girl had on my life honest to God serious impact she made my life she made our lives better in every single way you can imagine my darling is making farm fresh food for these two dogs to give them a great healthy strong life here on the farm they’re supposed to live you know a long long good life this is not supposed to happen I know some of you are just going to say just to take some time don’t worry about us don’t worry about a video but I mean there’s there’s a bunch of truths about it you know Molly is a big part of the channel a lot of you people started following and watching me and Molly on The Farm Way Back original when we didn’t have any animals on the farm it was just Molly and I and I honestly I feel like I owe some of you guys you know like an explanation but please know that I loved her I tried everything and I just it’s just a bad accident tragic so tragic I’m just sitting here because I picked out a nice Shady spot to bury Molly I think it was important for me and probably important for Molly to be buried here at the farm you know and I found a really nice spot under the trees here it’s a good show that actually that I still had my neighbor’s escavator here I I hadn’t given it back yet I mean he could take it whenever he wants but I still have it here because I plan on doing a little bit of work here that’s that’s actually what I was doing when this accident happened I was in the escavator but I dug a big hole and I said a prayer and said my goodbyes I’ll probably make some kind of a monument here you know like what when I get some time and I’m a bit more rational and I’ve been coming out here every day just sitting here I I’ve never even done that before with anybody in my life that has died I it’s just happened to me with this dog she’s my kin she’s my family and my soul I guess you know I’ve been thinking about it the past couple days one of the Miracles or benefits of content creation like on YouTube what I what I’ve been doing I’ve been doing this now for almost 4 years and we’ve been trying to grow this channel Molly’s been by my side the whole way building this channel I don’t know how many subscribers I gained how many of you viewers I gained just because of Molly probably a lot who wants to watch me they all want to watch Molly and I understand that cuz Molly’s amazing amazing I never talk about it on the channel but we have a Facebook account and an Instagram account and I occasionally post some photos on there just with you know the happenings of the farm and we have you know there’s a good number of people following those accounts there are dozens of people dozens of viewers to the YouTube channel that subscribe to the channel because of Molly or because of olive because of our old English sheep dogs watch regularly and comment regularly and they’re so happy to see the dogs they all ended up getting olding the sheep dogs of their own and they send me Instagram photos in private m messages that shows their own Old English sheep dog sitting there or jumping at their TV as they’re watching Molly on our YouTube channel on their TV it’s a really good feeling that I know because of the channel because of Molly that we’ve touched so many people’s lives and I don’t know how many people actually have Old English sheep dogs now maybe you can tell me in the comments how many of you have Old English sheep dogs put it in the comments for me and say a little prayer for Molly because this is really tough as you could tell I don’t even remember when was the last time I cried honest to God I cannot even put it into words how my heart misses this dog right now and I appreciate you listening I appreciate you following along but the sad reality now is that after today’s video or I guess after that last video that I did finishing up the Assembly of my Sawmill Molly shows up a couple times as she’s hanging around me her and Olive as I’m assembling this sawmill now I did already have two videos prepared you know like I don’t I don’t film a video today and edit it today upload it today and release it to the public tomorrow that’s not the way I do things I have usually two or three videos in advance and you need to do that in case anything comes up in your life and this is an absolute perfect example of why I do that so we had this accident at the farm I had I think two or three videos already to go and when we have this tragedy tragedy I didn’t do any filming I didn’t do any work I’m not in the mood and I still have my girl Olive she’s keeping me company through this tough time and um thanks for listening people I really do appreciate appreciate it okay [Music]